Have you ever met anyone that says they "needed" someone in their life? I have, and frankly, ive met one too many people like that. I, for one, DONT need anyone in my life unless I want them in it, i.e family and friends. I dont need someone in my life to make me happy, to laugh, to smile, to cry(even though i dont cry), to have a great time, im fully capable of doing that myself.
Today, all girls talk about is 'needing' a man. Needing them to make them more of a person, to make them more of a woman, needing them to make them feel 'whole', well thats a big HELL NO from me.
First off I'd like to say, is if you think and demand a man so much in your life, how much would this man demand you? Not a whole lot. He can have you, and any other lady he wants, and you wouldnt care because having the thought of having this man is blinding your thoughts and judgement. Now, im no one to judge, bc ive been there aswell. Id just like to give a little heads up, cuz there aint gonna be no man out there that demands you just as much as you demand him.
Then again, I can be wrong, but then again, im right, and youre jus mad bc you know i am. Let him go hun, there is no man out there worth youre demand, trust me.
But, as much as you demand, demand, demand, and theres not enough supply, then what? you jus gonna keep demanding till you get what you want? Ladies, most of you guys demand the nice guys, the good guys, but yall fall for the bad boys. Where as, those bad boys are so in demand, theres too many of em out there now. So think, for those girls who really demand a good guy, a genuinely nice, good guy, there aint enough of em bc theyre not in high demand, and well, not enough supply, bc mainly, everyone wants a bad boy. So when words out that there was a limited time good guy call, anyone and everyone, got their hands on one, and when you really want one, well again, 'limited time' and 'not enough demand and supply' <--econ lecture. Who woulda thought you would use an econ lecture as an example to relationships hahaha.
Now if you cant make yourself happy, and you depend on a guy to make you happy, therefore you shouldnt even deserve a guy. I can not stress this enough, YOU should make YOURSELF happy, before even thinking about sharing that happiness with someone else.
Point being, Id like to hang up my relationship status and plaster 'single' alllllllllllllll over it. Ive been doing a lot of thinking, and im not quite sure im ready for another relationship. Things aint the same, and im becoming uncomfortable with how things are, and i dont like being uncomfortable. I am going through a lot, and i cant seem to balance everything. Me, and my sister declared, that I have theeeeeeee worst luck in guys, like we really talked about this, and decided that i do. So ive always been like, "oh, well, im not looking to be in a relationship right now", or "i just got out of a relationship, not now" or "i dont want a bf" when really, im just this picky girl, a picky girl, with standards, a girl waiting to be swept off her feet, a girl waiting to find a guy to meet her standards, but now when i say im not ready, and i dont want a bf, i really mean it this time. I mean sure, bfs are cool, and awesome to have, but right now, im going through this emotional roller coaster, that i dont think anyone is gonna wanna be strapped down for the ride. Then again, theres that line, "what happens, happens, you cant fight fate&destiny" welllllll, then we'll talk, but for now, im sorry, theres really nothing i can do more than be here for myself, and try to make me happy. Ive always cared about everyone elses happiness, and i had forgotten how to smile, and really be happy. I dont mean to sound like this depressed emo girl, but if the shoe fits, then call me Cinderella. Id love to have a hand to help me go through this, but i wouldnt wanna drag anyone downhill with me, but for now, its me going s-o-l-o.
Now, just because im doin all that, it doesnt mean, i can change my mind, its always easier said then done, and i can change my mind in a heartbeat, but for now im pretty set on this.
Im done trying to make people happy, and see things how i see it. Im done trying to please people, im done, done, done.
So right now, imma try to take my own advice, and help myself to some self discovery. Discovering what I want and need, to help me reach my dreams and goals.
Im not waning off men for good lol, im simply putting them aside, until i know what i want in life. Im still young, theres no need to rush this relationship business.
ohhhh and before i finish off..
"why make him a priority, when hes makin you an option"
think about it..
